its-not-black-and-white:

I want to be strong, but I deserve to be weak.

I want to be brave, but I deserve to be a coward.

I want to eat, but I deserve to starve.

I want to be beautiful, but I deserve to be ugly.

I want to have more friends, but I deserve to be lonely.

I want to be loved, but I deserve to be hated.

I want to be happy, but I deserve to be sad.

I want to be alive, but I deserve to be dead.

(via dull-the-pain)